why do i heart thee so much?

I was not kidding when I said things like how I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I'm with Him. how I get nervous when I'm around him and how my heart jumps up and down when I know I'll be seeing him after a tiring day at work, or after a buzzie and boozie night with my friends.

When I'm close to him, sea of faceless people pause like still photo's on a sunny day, like when my eyes close and when it opens it's just his face and his smile that I choose to see nothing else, and yes I'm contented.

under his loving spell I'm etched, and must I tell you, I have fallen. at the edge of the cliff I was not so very long ago. and not so very long ago I was like all sorts of butterflies seeking comfort in every thing. like a neophyte in this game people play, like a soldier at the front line of the war. - "I fought the war, but the war won" -Metric

And then one night out of the other 100 mundane nights consistently being seen by the public eye, I met him. and out of the 10 something times I had been forced to drink coffee on a date, I chose tea and he was fine by it, Such a gentleman to even offer to cover. nonchalant I was about such and such, I knew then on that he takes a stand for my Independence, and acknowledges the fact I'm still a woman, and he will not take my boldness against me.

I was never a fan of false pretenses. when my six tells me there's something wrong, there really is something wrong. It's like, I, having to press eject when I hear a waste of facsinating poetry over the songs that gets to be yelled. It's like, I, having to press stop, when the melody just don't add up the kind that gives you and "eeky" and a "yikes" vibe. and lastly, It's like I, having to press skip or forward when there's disconnect and when I just don't really like the music at all.
- " I fought the law, and I won" - Dead Kennedys

With you, it's like, I, having to press "repeat all" or "repeat 1" with no qualms, because yours is the kind of song that speaks how I feel when I am silenced. yours are the words of a song that reveals my inner most thoughts when I'm in fear.

despite everything, I love you.