I cover my head with pillows in the middle of the day that could last the whole day to feel what it's like to be somebody I know I can't be. to be taken to a place I know dreams can only take me. In day dreaming I feel the sense of ultimate control and infinite power in contrast to what I am in this world. while others crave for fame, fortune and recongnition. I take it to my dreams, it's easier to achieve it there.
I thought that it will still make sense for those things I know i can't have, or a person i know i can't be in such film and montage of day dreams. rather than force my self in to these things. it's tiring, it's frustrating, it's claused.
Well my reality isn't that bad at all, and i still smile whenever I see random people or even acquaintance who try aimlessly to switch reality to their own day dream. It's entertaining and comic.
My life is not my day dream. half of my problems were solved when I started to live for what is real.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Sunday, December 11, 2011
weeking wooking
because I was so busy, doing things here and there, and because I have been so immersed with traveling, I never really found the time to write. too many things happening, too may Interesting people to meet and too many places to discover and go!
and so, because all these things are happening, I found the need to seriously buy a camera once again. that's the next project after the holiday season and today, I will do gift shopping and I'm creating the master list for my gifts since I'll be spending xmas here in Manila for the very first time!
It was a great year all together! there's such a great blessing that came my way. I bought a flat screen TV with my hard earned money woohooo! today im going to do xmas shopping! how busy! I have the tree up. Steven is back in the states for 1 week, and he'll be coming home with a recipe for pudding. we'll spending xmas together with my fam bam! Mom's arriving on the 18th and Dad's coming on the 24th :) getting my place ready so that everybody's comfie.
Love
J
and so, because all these things are happening, I found the need to seriously buy a camera once again. that's the next project after the holiday season and today, I will do gift shopping and I'm creating the master list for my gifts since I'll be spending xmas here in Manila for the very first time!
It was a great year all together! there's such a great blessing that came my way. I bought a flat screen TV with my hard earned money woohooo! today im going to do xmas shopping! how busy! I have the tree up. Steven is back in the states for 1 week, and he'll be coming home with a recipe for pudding. we'll spending xmas together with my fam bam! Mom's arriving on the 18th and Dad's coming on the 24th :) getting my place ready so that everybody's comfie.
Love
J
Sunday, August 21, 2011
what the Plank?
Okay so earlier, on facebook feeds, I have seen another incoherent display of planking.
I N C O H E R E N T D I S P L A Y O F P L A N K I N G.
And it ticks the heck out of me. there are worthy ones, but there are some that are badly done. It's simple. read the definition of planking and follow from there on.
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Jung's personality test. Seemingly Interesting. my result was INTJ. It's amazing how it revealed my being a closet Introvert ;) a profound explanation was provided through Briggs-Myer personality test, and I fondly told Steven that INTJ's are classified as the Master Minds and The Structure builders and surprisingly INTJ's are one of the rarest of the sixteen personality types, and account for about 1–4% of the population.
"You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 17
being an INTJ does not make me special. and I take that in with honesty, modesty and acceptance. we are all one and the same.
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Oh my dear Inna Santiago. allow me to take this paragraph to say how proud I am of you my dear. please see this link http://www.candymag.com/fashion/style-files/inna-santiago/
Inna, studied at Brent Int'l school, then went to SOFA for her fashion studies. putting those facts aside, This sweetheart has it. congratulations Inna!
another uprising stylist to watch out for is Trish Velarmino. this lady is fierce!
and mind you she got the brains for fashion too and the last time I get to hang out with her was at the Philippine Fashion Week at SMX. cheers Trish!
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My dearest Steven is leaving for the US on the 13th of September and he will have to stay until the 28th. granted that I will tremendously miss him, I thought of organizing a simple send off party for him inviting his Manila friends. I want to do a Bowling party and afterwards perhaps to proceed at his residence to drink! He's okay with the Idea. So I shall create an event on facebook within the day. we're both excited. and we're hoping to see everybody there!
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...you're not how much money you've got in the bank. You're not your job. You're not your family, and you're not who you tell yourself.... You're not your name.... You're not your problems.... You're not your age.... You are not your hopes. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 18
"...then who are you? who are we?
we are the person in the absence of nothing.
you are the character you form in the absence of nothing" - Christina Carter
I N C O H E R E N T D I S P L A Y O F P L A N K I N G.
And it ticks the heck out of me. there are worthy ones, but there are some that are badly done. It's simple. read the definition of planking and follow from there on.
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Jung's personality test. Seemingly Interesting. my result was INTJ. It's amazing how it revealed my being a closet Introvert ;) a profound explanation was provided through Briggs-Myer personality test, and I fondly told Steven that INTJ's are classified as the Master Minds and The Structure builders and surprisingly INTJ's are one of the rarest of the sixteen personality types, and account for about 1–4% of the population.
"You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 17
being an INTJ does not make me special. and I take that in with honesty, modesty and acceptance. we are all one and the same.
<--------->
Oh my dear Inna Santiago. allow me to take this paragraph to say how proud I am of you my dear. please see this link http://www.candymag.com/fashion/style-files/inna-santiago/
Inna, studied at Brent Int'l school, then went to SOFA for her fashion studies. putting those facts aside, This sweetheart has it. congratulations Inna!
another uprising stylist to watch out for is Trish Velarmino. this lady is fierce!
and mind you she got the brains for fashion too and the last time I get to hang out with her was at the Philippine Fashion Week at SMX. cheers Trish!
<-------->
My dearest Steven is leaving for the US on the 13th of September and he will have to stay until the 28th. granted that I will tremendously miss him, I thought of organizing a simple send off party for him inviting his Manila friends. I want to do a Bowling party and afterwards perhaps to proceed at his residence to drink! He's okay with the Idea. So I shall create an event on facebook within the day. we're both excited. and we're hoping to see everybody there!
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...you're not how much money you've got in the bank. You're not your job. You're not your family, and you're not who you tell yourself.... You're not your name.... You're not your problems.... You're not your age.... You are not your hopes. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 18
"...then who are you? who are we?
we are the person in the absence of nothing.
you are the character you form in the absence of nothing" - Christina Carter
Monday, August 1, 2011
listening to my body
lately, I could not finish a stick of cigar. couple of puffs then I'm done. It's like, there's an inner pull from my body that tells me "hey I couldn't finish a stick anymore please stop" - I do not ignore that voice with in me. So it's smart to listen to my body what it tells me, because it could be that my lungs are weak already and it's giving me a warning that i should lessen my nico intake really soon.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Alright so I'm thrilled with the Idea of going to Binondo Manila this saturday to find and raid this fabric store called SUPERIOR FABRIC SALES located at 948 Soler Street Binondo 1000 Manila Metro Manila. you see the cute thing about binondo is the community itself, small, you can walk around and just stumble on some good find and good food after a long walk.
I've been to Binondo twice, once with my sister and the 2nd time was by my self when I went to get a lamp for the Apt. w/c by the way up until today hasn't been installed. anyway, yes, so this time I'm going back to do "tela" shopping :-)
I'd probaby bring Zai or Marvin with me, or ask Steve to join if he wants to. I'm not sure if he has the stamina to do these things with me because they say guys hates shopping with ladies.... for one, I remember talking to him about the articles I read about guys and he says well it doesn't apply to him, so we'll see if he could survive shopping, walking, in Binondo with me and my Girlfrand! Oh I forgot he has work. bummer, I'd probably see him after. and a confirmation came through text that Zai has work too, so I guess I'm left with Marvin should my dear be up for it, if not, I'd probably go with my sister or just by myself again haha! anyhoo, not a problem there :-)
After the Tela Hunting, I intend to schedule to meet with my Modista for the pegs.
now this is where my sweet torture begin because I really want to learn how to sew I never learned how to, that's why I envy those who can sew and make fabulous creation out of good quality fabrics.believe me they are more than just talented individual who can out things together like that! I love sewers and modistas, they are the angels of the fashion world bless them for their gift!
Steve is my love, he makes me laugh so hard with out him having to try! like, last night, I wrote the buchikik lyrics down on a piece of paper and made him read it.... haha! really cute! priceless :-)
I've been to Binondo twice, once with my sister and the 2nd time was by my self when I went to get a lamp for the Apt. w/c by the way up until today hasn't been installed. anyway, yes, so this time I'm going back to do "tela" shopping :-)
I'd probaby bring Zai or Marvin with me, or ask Steve to join if he wants to. I'm not sure if he has the stamina to do these things with me because they say guys hates shopping with ladies.... for one, I remember talking to him about the articles I read about guys and he says well it doesn't apply to him, so we'll see if he could survive shopping, walking, in Binondo with me and my Girlfrand! Oh I forgot he has work. bummer, I'd probably see him after. and a confirmation came through text that Zai has work too, so I guess I'm left with Marvin should my dear be up for it, if not, I'd probably go with my sister or just by myself again haha! anyhoo, not a problem there :-)
After the Tela Hunting, I intend to schedule to meet with my Modista for the pegs.
now this is where my sweet torture begin because I really want to learn how to sew I never learned how to, that's why I envy those who can sew and make fabulous creation out of good quality fabrics.believe me they are more than just talented individual who can out things together like that! I love sewers and modistas, they are the angels of the fashion world bless them for their gift!
Steve is my love, he makes me laugh so hard with out him having to try! like, last night, I wrote the buchikik lyrics down on a piece of paper and made him read it.... haha! really cute! priceless :-)
Sunday, July 24, 2011
MIND SET!
check!
Amazing because MAGIS has been a discipline taught to us by the Jesuits. MAGIS is a phrase means "more" and this phrase has been very popular in the Ateneo culture and the entire community as well. it sought me through the stress and the pressure of having to complete my thesis study and other many form of pressure that comes with it.
Magis according to the Jesuits is the yardstick of Ignatius was always to undertake that which was ‘the better choice’, ‘the more effective enterprise’, ‘the more widely influential’. ‘meeting the greater need’, not simply because such a course was harder, but because it would yield ‘the greater good’ or be more loving. ...
We at the Ateneo was taught seek for the greater glory of things, first through the Kingdom of God (Ad Majorem dei gloriam) and for God to be the light (Lux in Domino) It is one of those school of thought I brought along with me after leaving the comfort zone of my home- The Ateneo.
At this stage, because I decided to Life Hack- by this I mean to alter and break the chain cycle of my routine. to sacrifice sleep, comfort, parties, events, to achieve an end goal. what is the end goal? I want to attain Balance by means of Life hacking, distabilizing my status-quo to achieve excellent and shameless results.
I remember jokingly telling a close friend of mine the yesterday that this experience is my punishment for being reckless and lax for the past few months.
and really.
I aim to be more responsible than what I am now. I aim to practice such principle for a better belief system by working on my issues as an individual, and hopefully be a better person for my loved ones and friends too. I suppose, this will materialize once this life hack starts and I hope to be succesful on this. let's see if I'm able to conquer it. and when I do, WOW it will such an achievement and I'd probably write about it too.
and yes, There would be quite a few tabling to do.
Yes, I'm still the old friend you knew.
but this friend of yours needs a little tweaking :-)
Amazing because MAGIS has been a discipline taught to us by the Jesuits. MAGIS is a phrase means "more" and this phrase has been very popular in the Ateneo culture and the entire community as well. it sought me through the stress and the pressure of having to complete my thesis study and other many form of pressure that comes with it.
Magis according to the Jesuits is the yardstick of Ignatius was always to undertake that which was ‘the better choice’, ‘the more effective enterprise’, ‘the more widely influential’. ‘meeting the greater need’, not simply because such a course was harder, but because it would yield ‘the greater good’ or be more loving. ...
We at the Ateneo was taught seek for the greater glory of things, first through the Kingdom of God (Ad Majorem dei gloriam) and for God to be the light (Lux in Domino) It is one of those school of thought I brought along with me after leaving the comfort zone of my home- The Ateneo.
At this stage, because I decided to Life Hack- by this I mean to alter and break the chain cycle of my routine. to sacrifice sleep, comfort, parties, events, to achieve an end goal. what is the end goal? I want to attain Balance by means of Life hacking, distabilizing my status-quo to achieve excellent and shameless results.
I remember jokingly telling a close friend of mine the yesterday that this experience is my punishment for being reckless and lax for the past few months.
and really.
I aim to be more responsible than what I am now. I aim to practice such principle for a better belief system by working on my issues as an individual, and hopefully be a better person for my loved ones and friends too. I suppose, this will materialize once this life hack starts and I hope to be succesful on this. let's see if I'm able to conquer it. and when I do, WOW it will such an achievement and I'd probably write about it too.
and yes, There would be quite a few tabling to do.
Yes, I'm still the old friend you knew.
but this friend of yours needs a little tweaking :-)
Monday, July 18, 2011
Lately, I have been flirting with the idea of coming back and doing photo J.
I need to commit.
I
COM.....
shoot. why did I even stop.
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I wish I talk like a minion sometimes. you might be wondering what the hell is a minion? A minion are small, yellow, pill-shaped creatures that have one or two eyes, A rambunctious bunch of simple-minded beings. they are characters from the movie despicable me.
They choose to express themselves through actions, not words, their "language" is fairly basic, they speak in strange jabber, they don't really speak. at least, not in words human's can understand.
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blogging is healing. and it shall be this way for now.
I need to commit.
I
COM.....
shoot. why did I even stop.
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I wish I talk like a minion sometimes. you might be wondering what the hell is a minion? A minion are small, yellow, pill-shaped creatures that have one or two eyes, A rambunctious bunch of simple-minded beings. they are characters from the movie despicable me.
They choose to express themselves through actions, not words, their "language" is fairly basic, they speak in strange jabber, they don't really speak. at least, not in words human's can understand.
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blogging is healing. and it shall be this way for now.
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