BLENDER

BLUNDER- Make such a mistake; act or speak clumsily, A stupid or careless mistake.

I will be happy to see you there someday.
but now, let me tell you with feelings that I am happy with what we have.

A friend said from 10 I dropped to ZERO for being lame with my thoughts. she can't believe those things will come out from me. I can't believe it either.

I shall not talk about the M word
I shall not ask about the Future word

It sucks right. and I realized how, awkward it is and how hasty it is of me to even pop such questions. weird. I wasn't thinking. maybe I was but it wasn't properly delivered or is there such thing? I don't know. now that I'm getting in touch with my senses, I feel like a clingy, thoughtless, meiopic bitch for even asking him if i was the one, if he sees me in his future. I know there's nothing wrong in asking these questions, but i just find it crazy that I am asking too soon, haha! how insecure right? bad. very bad. :-)

I saw how it freaked the hell out of my boyfriend's guts, not that I'm taking it against him. but really It's a lesson learned. when it's too soon, it's too soon. and if you probably want to freak your boyfriend out, ask him these things and you'd probably win :-) but it's risky. very risky.

Now I could laugh about it, and I don't even know why I felt a lil sad for a valid justification. somebody's not thinking straight lately haha! I'm just happy that I have friends who puts me back to the right place, to snap me out of my blender head. and I'm just probably lucky to have somebody who remains rational, despite this woman, acting like a child sometimes <3...