sextacles

Great, I woke up really early this morning not wanting to wake up because i came back at the apt late....early....late... yeah.

So I was forced to leave the comfort of my bed to go to Cubao and have my Phone fixed. not that I'm very anal about cellphones. believe me I don't mind. I wouldn't want to replace this old modeled Nokia phone if it didn't stop sending SMS's. I'm quite comfie with it knowing that the keypads are soft, like i could text while walking and by not looking at it.

so some people were busy bugging me to change my phone to a touch screen one, I remember I have an old touch screen phone that I haven't been using because the "touch" feature gave up on me not so long ago like last year. so having been said that, I finally had the energy to have the touch phone rectified.
(this is part of my to do list by the way)

So, The photo day and the ID day is comming up. I could not think of other Major errand I have to do beat after all this limbo. oh 1 more yes. but that should happen around late July. then I have to toggle 3 other different errands for the month of July and This will last hopefully until september. Then come october I could seriously BREATHE.

Yes, So I take things day at a time yes. and along side I enjoy good conversation with friends, old and new acquaintances who eventually land and hit the friendship spot (aw). while having all these Polar bear at my back, the fact that i get to chill with the closest few solidifies the whole eXperience.

ayoko lang.

hassle free

how many more bullets do i have to take from you?
how many more bullets do you want me to take for you?

are you calling again? when will you call again? where is it? when will it explode?
what is your name? why are you doing this?

what is your name and why are you doing this?
are you calling again? when will you call again?

what is your name and why are you doing this.

airbourne

Okay so I got my 2nd recognition at work today for a job well done. and for the price? A goodie bag.

I'm happy and excited for Fete de La Musique (for detailed explanation, please search on google, I really don't wanna end up copying and pasting info, and I'm too lazy to explain, and I assume the reader to be in the know of such event, if not, yes just google it) tomorrow at the fort, I've been an avid fan since 2006 and by that time it was held on the streets of ortigas yo!

This typhoon thing is such a stubborn bugger, according to PAGASA the typhoon is suppose to exit the Philippines tomorrow morning, hopefully it does because I don't want anything to spoil such meaningful event organized by passionate people whom I have encountered in several occasions (YEAH YOU ROCK, and congratulations for being on the paper :) and who have the love for MUZAK. and yes rain or shine brothas and sistas I'll be present! let's get fucked up and druuuunk!!!


It's quite a big deal to finally have an Indie stage on Fete, something that was really missing for the last years. so I'm quite adamant to be part this meaningful launch, so let's see how it all go. I'll be everywhere and as usual I shall arrive after 11.

I'm excited to see friends and old acquaintances again, becuase for some reason I haven't been seeing you guys lately at.... you know where :) may post some reviews I don't know, I'm just too lazy for it. well somebody convinced me the other time to sign up on tumblr. but I don't have the time for it, I don't even have the whole day for myself now. but again, we'll see.

So I'm finally spinning again (hooorraaah) It's about time yes. been out for couple of months but it felt so long. my hands are itching, my heart is yearning, Paris is burning all night long hahahaahah!

My dear, there was such a feeling of joy to finally see your weird face again. I have known you before all of this,before Paris burned etc. and if there is something I have to apologize about, I will. if there's one thing about me that you sure know, is the fact that I stand up for my choices. regardless. and we are clear on that.

our talks about Hamlet, under ground rave parties w.c you claim to be ahem a hipster for christ sake! a hip head dancing to dashberlin! haha the roof top. lousy and lame parties we had to skip because it was just really lame. how you almost pass out because you claimed to be drunk w.c i know you weren't haha

for everything I thank you still. and I'm happy to know we're cool.

CHANSING

unti unting nalalagas ang mga dahon sa puno.
may kirot sa bawat pag lagas, bawat hulog.
sa bawat dahon na unti unting bumabagsak sa lupa may pangambang kaakibat ay awa...

*to be continued**

BLENDER

BLUNDER- Make such a mistake; act or speak clumsily, A stupid or careless mistake.

I will be happy to see you there someday.
but now, let me tell you with feelings that I am happy with what we have.

A friend said from 10 I dropped to ZERO for being lame with my thoughts. she can't believe those things will come out from me. I can't believe it either.

I shall not talk about the M word
I shall not ask about the Future word

It sucks right. and I realized how, awkward it is and how hasty it is of me to even pop such questions. weird. I wasn't thinking. maybe I was but it wasn't properly delivered or is there such thing? I don't know. now that I'm getting in touch with my senses, I feel like a clingy, thoughtless, meiopic bitch for even asking him if i was the one, if he sees me in his future. I know there's nothing wrong in asking these questions, but i just find it crazy that I am asking too soon, haha! how insecure right? bad. very bad. :-)

I saw how it freaked the hell out of my boyfriend's guts, not that I'm taking it against him. but really It's a lesson learned. when it's too soon, it's too soon. and if you probably want to freak your boyfriend out, ask him these things and you'd probably win :-) but it's risky. very risky.

Now I could laugh about it, and I don't even know why I felt a lil sad for a valid justification. somebody's not thinking straight lately haha! I'm just happy that I have friends who puts me back to the right place, to snap me out of my blender head. and I'm just probably lucky to have somebody who remains rational, despite this woman, acting like a child sometimes <3...

why do i heart thee so much?

I was not kidding when I said things like how I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I'm with Him. how I get nervous when I'm around him and how my heart jumps up and down when I know I'll be seeing him after a tiring day at work, or after a buzzie and boozie night with my friends.

When I'm close to him, sea of faceless people pause like still photo's on a sunny day, like when my eyes close and when it opens it's just his face and his smile that I choose to see nothing else, and yes I'm contented.

under his loving spell I'm etched, and must I tell you, I have fallen. at the edge of the cliff I was not so very long ago. and not so very long ago I was like all sorts of butterflies seeking comfort in every thing. like a neophyte in this game people play, like a soldier at the front line of the war. - "I fought the war, but the war won" -Metric

And then one night out of the other 100 mundane nights consistently being seen by the public eye, I met him. and out of the 10 something times I had been forced to drink coffee on a date, I chose tea and he was fine by it, Such a gentleman to even offer to cover. nonchalant I was about such and such, I knew then on that he takes a stand for my Independence, and acknowledges the fact I'm still a woman, and he will not take my boldness against me.

I was never a fan of false pretenses. when my six tells me there's something wrong, there really is something wrong. It's like, I, having to press eject when I hear a waste of facsinating poetry over the songs that gets to be yelled. It's like, I, having to press stop, when the melody just don't add up the kind that gives you and "eeky" and a "yikes" vibe. and lastly, It's like I, having to press skip or forward when there's disconnect and when I just don't really like the music at all.
- " I fought the law, and I won" - Dead Kennedys

With you, it's like, I, having to press "repeat all" or "repeat 1" with no qualms, because yours is the kind of song that speaks how I feel when I am silenced. yours are the words of a song that reveals my inner most thoughts when I'm in fear.

despite everything, I love you.

hitched anxiety

Those boon times went bust my feet filled with dust, they dried like clay, and the red isn't the red we painted Its more of a rust. and the signature thing? that used to bring a following, oh fuck I have trouble now even remembering.

I knew that to keep in touch would do me deep in dutch because it isn't the rush of remembering Its just mush and the signature thing? Is only growing harrowing
I should have no trouble now to keep from following.

So why did I kiss him so hard late last Friday night and keep on letting him change all my plans? I'm either so sick in the head and mad down in love or I need to be bled dry, to continue because I just really really love him.

every sunny day

and this beautiful parody that I'm in does not change what my innerbody movement says about you. majestic. majestic. I want to crayon your name on my wall, or maybe borrow a wall at some place and write all that i have to say to you on there, only because I really couldn't afford to buy a wall somewhere, and only because until now I'm chicken shit and all that about you.