we are made of starts from a star spangled banner

(circa 2006)

why do i end up malignantly under a parallax close to being archaic on a bridge that's short listed as a coma.

(there's no ulterior meaning to it)

Celsa, after being in a concentration camp in MOA (mall of the asiatic asia)last saturday in as we bid the days humanely smothering on some free beer we got because of the mighty mighty wristbands tynna have, I, Jamie Carter 23 years of age do swear to not drink beer for the succeeding months... darn this is wishful thinking. i'll be 24 sooner than you think. HA!

if wearing red pumps on business days is not considered corporate then why on earth allow other colors like that of blue, green and yellow to work??? is "something corporate" be defined and limited to that of black,gray and white? can't someone be fashionably corporate? (i need a hammer)

on a different note, day by day, the less i strangle to the word "apathy" my head is voluntarily accepting the fact that i feel placid now, that i don't feel scared. that i don't feel sorry for being reckless with my thoughts, for not having to care if i am this way. for not having to worry about what other's have to say about music.genre.books.love.intelligence.brilliance and art. if giving a "fuck" means being almost aware of everything, then i don't need that kind of fuck.

it's easy to say "free cambodia" "free kenya" "free sierra Leonne" it's seemingly alright to exercise your right to free speech, there you have it... a perfect example of free speech. all speech for free but is somebody out there listening to your cries? maybe yes but where's the output? if these nations had to be freed then it should have had been many years ago.

I've always found a sense of enlightenment with the word pro-bono(not U2)it originated from the word pro-bono y publico w/c means for the good of everyone. very idealistic, but boardering on myopic . it's a strong and positive statement, but i haven't fused a way to make it come to life nor seen it happen in reality. if you can refer me to a study or you can tell me how it can be possible, please let me know how and let me see a work or a writing about it, then afterwards let's talk. the drink is on me. if your picky then fine i'll buy you lunch/dinner.

anyway, i then came into a conclusion that all i needed was a prankster to give me that "aha" moment. sometimes, our friends would tell us what we want to hear only to pacify us. and this prankster is also a friend but not the closest one, and even if it was a bit harsh, you earned my respect just by being honest.

And my dear Jenny, yes, i thought i have loved. but i choose to keep that part out of the paper. my admiration and sheer fondness for this person had come to an end. it wasn't love it was just mere fondness and admiration... the sun has left my sky on a rainy day... and i figured perhaps what i need is a sky,,, not a sun or a star or a moon, only but a sky...

and i sound like a trying hard poetic fucktard because of that statement :)

i'll eat popcorn.